Tuesday, April 28, 2020

London Week 3 & 4 - October 31

London Week 3 & 4 - through Oct. 31, 2020

I was breaking this up weekly, but I got things together for wrong weeks/days, so it is all together now.  I just can't bear going back and fixing it all.

This is such a walking city.  I can't imagine owning a car, or even needing one here with the great transportation system.  The climate protesters did have an impact on the subway and buses as they had to divert buses around some bridges, so that did make it a little more difficult for us.  When you're on a bus and the driver makes a change announcement with a bad mic and a thick British accent one can't understand, that can be a little scary.  But we have managed to get around famously.

Visiting in the Fall has been such a blessing......

We had a wonderful dinner that Julian cooked for us.  Something that I'd been wanting to have for a long time -- Croque Monsieur.  A lovely, rich French sandwich (knife & fork) with ham, cheeses, sauce and broiled.  They were made with great care and were perfect.  Thank you for the wonderful dinner.  When we headed to France so did Julian the next day, back to work and reality.

So rich and delicious


Had an pretty quick trip over to Chantilly, France on October 15th.  A very, very early morning to catch the train to Gare du Nord and then a train to get to Chantilly.  Cheryl's friend, Vanessa, came to pick us up and drove us around showing us the area.  Had a nice lunch and then we went to our rooms for the night.  Next morning we walked around at a market in the rain and Vanessa came to pick us up to take us to the Chantilly Chateau and we spent several heavenly hours there.  One of the most beautiful chateaus I have been to.   For more details http://www.domainedechantilly.com/en/#       If in Paris, highly recommend a day trip here, only about one hour away.  Had lunch with Vanessa and she drove us back to the train.  The short trip was worth the effort.  So nice to meet Vanessa.

Saturday (Oct. 18th)  we went to an photography exhibition, 50 photographers on display, in the Oxo Tower  Enjoyed the photos, 4 floors filled, in this old warehouse type building.  The weather was decent with partially clear sky so we decided this was a good time to try the London Eye.  So we walked over and took a spin.  Worth every penny.  Great views and no long lines.  The sky was great for photographs and we had a good time.

Visited Trafalgar Square (now empty of protesters) and enjoyed our early morning picture taking without huge crowds.  We had some rain and wind and my umbrella flew into the fountain, it was sort of funny.  Then we visited the National Gallery.  A wondrous place one can get lost in, literally.  Room after room broken down by years.  Plentiful examples of each artists.  A very special collection.

After the museum we made our way over for a visit to Chinatown.  Some fun photo opportunities and we had lunch.  A bit surprised there weren't really any fun stores, just more restaurants than you could imagine.  We did enjoy looking around that entire area.  Nothing special though.  We actually were killing time because we were going to meet my friend I met in 2013 in Clearwater, she couch surfed at our house for 2 days.  She was a Buddhist nun for 7 years and now travels around the world working with people on their meditation.  She was called to do this.  It was so great to see her and feel her positive spirit.  We've tried to connect a time or two before, but just keep missing each other.  A wonderful visit and Cheryl enjoyed her too.

Up early to get down to see the Changing of the Guard at Buckingham Palace.  There were so many people.  Luckily we found on spot left on the fence so we could get a peek in to watch and take pictures.  We were on the wrong side, so missed some of it.  So crowded though I'm not sure it was worth it to me.  Crushing.......... but I guess if you come to London it needs to be seen.  Walked through Hyde Park again and the trees are changing colors so it was very pretty.

Hyde Park

From the Palace, we walked to Harrods - the famous department store founded in 1849. Now owned by the state of  Qatar.  I had no idea about that, wow. The store occupies a 5-acre site and has 330 departments covering 1.1 million square feet of retail space. It is the largest department store in Europe and lays claim to having its own unique postcode, SW1X 7XL.

The store is beautiful and, of course, outrageously expensive with only the top brands.  We stopped in the coffee and a croissant (with butter and jam) each and our bill was $40 U.S.  So needless to say, we won't be back, but will head for Costa Coffee, or something similar.  Fun to see though and we had a good time looking.

We made our trip to Liverpool on Thursday via train.  I've done a separate blog for that fun day.  The architecture was really stunning.  Check it out if you want:  http://goingtoseeitall.blogspot.com  (See right hand side you can find all my other blogs - Liverpool).

The area we are staying in is called Bermondsey, which has gone through regentrification, as in the 70's and 80's it was a pretty bad area.  Now it is hip and very chic.  A fun place to walk around with so many great coffee shops, little cafes and art including a large scale glassblowing shop where you can watch them creating beautiful (and expensive) glass.  I won't be taking any souvenirs home from there.

Bermondsey's earliest written appearance is in the Domesday Book of 1086. The area during the industrial boom of the 19th century was an extension of Bermondsey's manufacturing role in earlier eras. The area was known for processing and trading of leather and hides. You can still see warehouses called Tanner and evidence of the leather, tanning trade.

I was curious about this areas history seeing the names so had to look it up. The most interesting thing was one of the reasons they wanted the tanning business out of the City of London. Not pleasant, but I think very interesting. I can only imagine the odor

"The streets of Victorian London were surprisingly free of dog poo. The old 'muck = brass' equation found its most revolting solution in the leather trade. The process of tanning required copious amounts of excrement, colloquially known as 'pure', which leather workers would rub into the hides."
https://londonist.com › 2014/09 › a-brief-history-of-london-poo
 http://www.ideal-homes.org.uk/southwark/assets/histories/bermondsey

Such a busy week, with trips to Cardiff, Wales (10/22), and to Liverpool (10/24).  We really got around this week.  Our time is almost over and it has flown by.  It has been so good.  Cheryl and I have done just about perfect for spending more than a month together, a tiny blip here and there, but as great friendships are not defined by those silly things, we emerge from our trip bonded stronger than ever through all our memories.  It has been great to have such a good travel partner.  We have tons in common, agree on so much  Thank you my dear friend for joining me on this wonderful journey.

Friday we had plans, but after a trip to Wales and one to Liverpool, both long day trips, we opted to have a stay at home, rest day.  Did the wash, walked to the store, cooked some food.  I think we needed a day of rest and felt better the next day for having rested.

The 26th we had a ball going to the London Oktoberfest.  Live music, German food and beer.  We made some friends, ate, drank and danced -- a really good time.


Our favorite, jagerschnitzel.

In the spirit, they were having a good time.

On Sunday, October 27th, we went to Hampton Court Palace.  While it is still in London (at the end of it) we walked, took bus, took underground, took train and walked to get there.  The Palace was not originally intended as a royal residence. It was built by Thomas, Cardinal Wolsey, minister of Henry VIII and appropriated by the King when the former failed to bring about the King's divorce from his first wife, Catherine of Aragon. King Henry VIII loved to hunt there and there are descendent deer still living on the property.

A huge palace and I think the grounds are more beautiful than the palace.  This was a big place to tour and many kings spent time there.  Glad we went to the effort to go see it.  The day was clear with blue sky, but it was so cold.  First time on the trip I had my mittens on.  I should have bundled up a little more.  I will tomorrow.  It is starting to really cool off here and I'm not used to it.

Monday, we visited St. Paul's Cathedral.    https://www.stpauls.co.uk/visits/visits      A spectacular place and they have daily services.  I took communion there and it was very special.  Downstairs they have the crypts of many of Britain's national heroes are buried.  Christopher Wren is entombed there, he was an amazing man who was the lead architect of St.. Paul's.  He designed so many famous buildings and his life was so diverse.  https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christopher_Wren.

After St. Paul's we took our boat cruise down the Thames River since it was a nice day.  It was fun heading the down to a new area and seeing how they had saved and renovated the old docks.  They have made wonderful condos while keeping the flavor of the olden days.  We got to see the Cutty Sark sailing ship that was built in Scotland in 1863.  Do you know what a "cutty sark" is?  If not check it out, interesting.  https://www.rmg.co.uk/cutty-sark/history/why-ships-name-cutty-Sark

On the 29th we walked through Hyde Park for our third and final time  Fall was evident with the multi colored leaves and I had a sadness come over me knowing that I would be leaving London soon.  While in the park we saw green parakeets that really surprised, almost shocked us.  They seem to be quite common in London.  There are thousands of them around the city.  As I read, "you never forget your first parakeet moment."

We stopped by the Princess Diana Memorial Fountain.  A bit of a disappointment as the water was not fully running so the effect was not there.  Nice they built this memorial, but it would have been better had they maintained it better.

Another surprise as we walked in Kensington Garden was the huge and beautiful monument that Queen Victoria had built, unveiled in 1872, in memory of her beloved Prince Albert, who died at the age of 42. He died of typhoid fever. They were married 21 years and she never got over his death. She dressed in black for the rest of her life.

Finally arriving at our destination Kensington Palace, I was happy to see where Victoria was born and lived. It was a wonderful visit, I just loved it there. I especially thought about Victoria and Albert living there with their nine children. Her life was so interesting and the PBS program I'm watching really brings her to life.
And of course, to cap our amazing day off, we had high tea reservations for Prince Albert Hall.  Quite elegant and delicious.  Glad we had the second high tea, both were very different and this gave us a new experience.  How can I leave this place?  Beautiful Hall, and walked around the round building there are many cool statutes, fountains, buildings.  You can't go anywhere in London where you are not met with some surprise.  It is just an amazing city.

Such a busy trip going to Bournemouth, Chantilly, France, Cardiff, Wales, Stonehenge and Bath, and Liverpool.  We really got around.  I'm so glad we had one central location though, highly recommended so we didn't have to lug our suitcases around, just took backpacks for short trips.  The time has flown by.  It has been so good.  Cheryl and I have gotten along just about perfect for spending more than a month together, a tiny blip here and there, but as great friendships are not defined by those silly things, we emerge from our trip bonded stronger than ever through all our memories.  It has been great to have such a good travel partner.  We have tons in common, agree on so much  Thank you my dear friend for joining me on this wonderful journey.

We made our trip to Liverpool on Thursday via train.  I've done a separate blog for that fun day.  The architecture was really stunning.  Check it out if you want:  http://goingtoseeitall.blogspot.com  and look on the right side where all my blogs are listed. 

Sort of a mish mash, but instead of perfectly breaking each item down I felt it best just to get this published.  As usual, I am behind still, but London is now done.

I highly, highly recommend London.  I could go on and on, but if you have any questions just let me know.  I am so glad that I was fortunate enough to spend a month here and feel I have seen so much.  I could come back again as there is still more to see.  But I've got the whole world out there and as I said I'm "Going to See It All." (I wish.....time is ticking so I'm going while I can).  Next trip in May will be Armenia -- now that will be different.

Buckingham Palace




I loved the London Eye could see it from almost everywhere










The Shard, my favorite

City of great architecture and building and
cranes are everywhere, building, building.





Went for a photography show, 4 floors.  Fun



Is is called Joy.  I looked at this for a long time.  It does
show pure joy!!!!!  Look at that face.  I love this picture.







Down on the Thames riverside





Cutest and most practical tea cup, glass - when we had Chinese lunch


My umbrella blew into the fountain, windy, rainy and I
had it under my arm taking pictures.  Crazy.




The silver paint on this shined and looked so real.  Very beautiful.


The rags were used to curl the hair, interesting.

I was admiring the lace collars in these two paintings


Even the floors were beautiful - mosiac




Had to wait to see the Van Gogh's - they were so popular
I wonder what he would say today when he was
starving back in his time  I think he might be amazed.
















Sunday, April 26, 2020

4/26/2020 Sunday, another day


4/26/2020 Sunday.....another day

Sunday, a new day just like the others..... got my new table yesterday. My friend, Austin, did the woodwork and made the legs so I look forward to having dinners again........soon, someday? I was thinking about him and his family. They were the first friends we made in Florida, next door neighbors. We've had so many fun times over the years. Austin was a mere boy when we met and on May 9th he will turn 21 years old. Funny how he aged and I didn't.

My table is beautiful. I bought the wood a few months ago and hired Austin to finish it for me. Lots of sanding and hard work went into it. It is so heavy and big. Has removable legs so we could get it in the door. The nice thing about a custom table is that I had it made a little shorter so I can work in my office chair and have my feet touch the ground. Ergonomically perfect for me. I promised Austin the first meal.


Austin manufactured the legs that I chose
and they are sturdy and durable. So happy.

I immediately covered it with a plastic tablecloth and am starting on about 5 projects. Trick now is to complete one of them, LOL.

I've been hanging pictures, art so slowly. I have too many picture and not enough walls. So trying to be selective and I can't seem to just do it. Slow, slow.



Every surface covered







Fell asleep in my chair and up at 5 am, will do stuff today and then I'm sure take a nap. Listening to Santana, will file some papers. Seems I've printed out lots of recipes lately from coffee cake to limoncello. I don't have to print them, but if I don't I'll forget things I want to make. I have a drawer full now.

Lists, I've got lists everywhere. What to buy at the grocery store (don't want to forget anything since I go only once a week). List for projects to do, people to call, etc.

Have enjoyed visiting with friends via messenger, FB, Zoom, and actually the phone. I've had some of my longest conversations ever in my life. Talked to my friend in Boise for an hour and one half, wow. Finally had to say I've got to hang up because my elbow is hurting.

So upcoming week plans (too funny). I am going to try to force myself to do better starting Monday. Daily walk unless it pours like it has for a lot of the past week, and I mean torrential rain with thunder and lightening. Try again to dedicate an hour a day to my Spanish language work and get some more stuff up on the wall. Ambitious goals I know.......LOL.

Must share my goose girl who is nesting. I've been seeing her for three weeks when I take my walk along the canal. She is getting used to me now as I gently give her a greeting. Last week she was standing up (stretching her legs I imagine) and I was able to see her four large eggs. She's such a good mom. She is so close to the road and just very exposed to people who walk along the canal.  Seems the mom is the one who picks the nest location (I just read that), but it just seems like such a strange place.  Says they like to have a good line of sight up high, so I guess accomplished that.   I was taking pictures of her and stupidly standing in a red ant hill that I was alerted to by burning bites. So glad I had a paper towel in my hand because I had to spend ten minutes getting those horrid things off me. They were all over my shoes, socks and climbing up my legs and under my pants. Ouch, ouch. Learned a good lesson and suffered for about a week with blisters and itching. I am going to walk today and hope that the eggs have hatched so goose girl can move about. This has been a great experience watching this up close.






https://www.allaboutbirds.org/guide/Canada_Goose/lifehistory


This week has been sad for me personally when I look at my calendar and see that I was supposed to fly to London April 22nd and fly to Paris on April 23rd for a wonderful trip.  So that's the end of my whining.  I hope that we can travel again safely, soon.  I don't have time to sit around!!!!!!  I have spent quite a bit of time working on plane, train, hotel, Airbnb, tour refunds or travel vouchers.  It is so comforting to know that I have a travel voucher for Ukrainian Airlines!!!!  Much rather have the money.  I'm such a fiend for planning ahead, way ahead, and now I feel I might be changing my idea about that and go a little more spontaneously.  My great fear is that I will have to spend a night in a train station if I don't plan ahead.  Have to give this some thought for future travel.

I wish you all success in your endeavors. It is a good time to try new things. YouTube has been great, TED talks, Spanish lessons, different crafts and techniques, visiting with friends.  I have never in my life watched so much TV.  Lots of good documentaries which I enjoy, some good movies and some trashy stuff too.  Can't make everything educational I guess.  Eating is still challenging, but I know I'm not the only one struggling. I think a lot of us will come out of this with 5 or more pounds to show for it. I hope to look back on this experience as one where I learned new things about myself and as a result can make some improvements.  I am working on perfection, but it is hard.


Good to know that everyone I personally know has not been affected by the virus. I have heard of friends of friends who have either been sick or have passed away. That does give this all a reality check. I find it amazing that some people take this as a hoax or government plot, but I guess to each their own. As for me and mine, we are going to be very careful when things open up.  And, of course, I have the luxury of being retired and not having to go out and face the world to put food on the table.  An almost worse part for me is how they are talking about this coming back in Fall/Winter. I guess we'll see what happens and if so, how strong it is? We just don't know.

So that's it from here in my messy, busy, fun and wonderful room. I do hope to make progress to get this room complete. I'll set a mental deadline, but I'm not sharing that just in case I don't make it. LOL.

Hugs and stay safe out there......................
Flowers in my neighborhood



Friday, April 17, 2020

Changing Direction

4/8/20


CHANGING DIRECTION

My blog in the past has mostly been about travel.  Well since there is no travel at this time I will redirect my thoughts to life -- which of course is interesting.  This is such a historic time that I will hope is never repeated.

I've been trying to post positive things for myself and to share.  My post for today was:



I watched the most fascinating Netflix documentary the other night, "Life Overtakes Me".  I had never even heard of this type of trauma before in immigrant children in Sweden (now being seen quite a bit in Australia).  It is called Resignation Syndrome where some refugee children go into a coma-like state upon notification that the family is to be deported back to their homeland.  The documentary is 40 minutes long and I was amazed by this information.  Highly recommended unless you're only a light comedy person.  


Puzzles, when was the last time I've done a puzzle.  This is like being a child again and looked for fun and play.  How enjoyable and distracting working on a puzzle can be.  I find my total attention devoted to finding that one piece and that gives my brain some rest.  




Something so simple, but I just read this about the benefits: 

"Solving puzzles helps reinforce existing connections between our brain cells. It also increases the generation of new relationships. This, in turn, improves mental speed and thought processes. Jigsaw puzzles are especially good for improving short-term memory."

A friend of a friend wrote this and I think it is meaningful.

TRAFFIC is gone, GAS is affordable,
BILLS extended.
KIDS are at home with their FAMILIES.
PARENTS are home taking care of their CHILDREN.
FAST FOOD replaced by HOME COOKED MEALS.
Hectic SCHEDULES replaced by NAPS, REST, and RELAXATION.
The AIR seems CLEANER.
The WORLD quieter.
PEOPLE are conscious of HYGIENE and HEALTH.
MONEY doesn't seem to make the WORLD GO ROUND anymore.
DOCTORS AND NURSES are being praised and recognized instead of athletes and celebrities
And WE now have TIME, finally,
to STOP and SMELL the ROSES.

Home Sweet Home - Corona19 - 3rd week up to 4/17/20

Hey, still sane, well somewhat.  I seem to be less motivated each day with a few exceptions.

Two nice walks today, one at Phillipe Park.  I always enjoy that park and it reminds me of John since he enjoyed fishing there.  Walking makes me feel better.  Some people can't get outside at all and I can't imagine that.  Glad I don't live in NYC.

Florida is so full of beauty and wildlife at every turn.  Right in my neighborhood I saw my little goose girl who I met two weeks ago.  She has diligently been sitting on her nest and today when I went by she was standing up for a minute.  I can't imagine sitting on a nest day after day.

All photos taken 4/17/20, while on my 15 minute walk.
Picking this straw from grass.  Maybe making a nest?


Oh let's get these eggs hatched!!!!!!!!







I was taking some pictures of her (from a distance so as not to disturb her) and I was standing on a fire ant or red ant hill.  I felt this burning around my ankles, looked down and shoes and socks were covered.  Stings like hell.  Luckily I had a paper towel with me and I'm sure I looked pretty comical swatting and trying to kill ants, stomping my feet.  They started going up my pant legs.  This was scary and awful.  So now I've had up close and personal experience with these beasts.  How can something that small hurt so much.  Very scary because I overheard a conversation once at a restaurant where this lady was telling about how her son was killed by fire ants in Louisiana.  He was an underwater diver, 34 years old.  He went camping and guess pitched his tent in the wrong place and he died of anaphylactic shock.  Probably one of the saddest things I ever overheard.  I wanted to turn around and hug the mom, but of course I couldn't.  So then and there I realized the seriousness of those critters.  I had probably 150 on me in one second.  So now I will be watchful for any mounds where they could be.

I home made potato salad yesterday and also baked a wonderful coffee cake, called the LSUSD (Los Angeles Unified School District) cake, a recipe from 1957.  I used to eat that coffee cake most days when I was in junior high school.  It turned out great and I ate too much.



Staying in touch with friends via Zoom about once a week.  We even had a trivia game on line that was fun.  We also meet for park dinner, bringing our own chairs and sit 10 feet away and eat our own food.  But so fun to talk and see each other.  We had some lonely man sort of join in with us last week.  I just think he needed someone to talk to, so we did visit with him too.

I'm sure you are all experiencing up and downs like me.  I do notice that daily walks seem to help.  I'm only going to the grocery store once a week during "senior hour" with a mask, in at 7am and out by 7:45 am, not like my old shopping days of wandering the store finding new delights.  This last week there was no crowd as before, I'd say only about 20 peole in the whole store.

Been working on getting my plane, hotel, Airbnb, tour and train refunds.  Some places are great about it, some I am having to work with quite a bit and the worst are the foreign airlines that give credit.  It is nice to know that I have a credit from Ukrainian Airlines!!!!  Also EasyJet, but I can use that for any place they fly, which fortunately is lots of places.  I would be leaving for my trip on April 22nd, so that will be a sad day for me.

I've had some people who don't seem to know to not come close.  Wanted to punch a lady who just walked in front of me yesterday putting the trash out.  I was there before she was and she just walked right past me - close.  Some people are so rude and thoughtless.  I also noticed several really speedy cars on somewhat empty roads, I mean really enjoying the open road and going way too fast.  It makes me wonder where they are in such a hurry to get to.  

This could help people mind their distance:


But no real complaints, I've got a roof, food, internet and A/C so probably compared to a huge population I've got it made.   Now we will see where things are going and how we move out of this isolation.  It is a little scary and I hope it is smooth with no backlash.  Slow and sure.

Bless our front line people, doctors, nurses, paramedics, grocery clerks, gas station attendants, food workers.  These are truly brave souls.  We owe them so much.

So chins up, doing our best, caring about our neighbors, lending a helping hand where we can.  We can now appreciate the small things and I hope we take some of what we'velearned individually and can apply it when we are free again.

Stay safe................




Friday, April 3, 2020

Part II, Life in Real Isolation 4/3/20

Wow, never did expect this.  I think when I heard about this virus I assumed it would come (do its horrid damage) and go.  Well, we just got isolated in our homes for the month of April.  This is going to really test our mental abilities.  This is a nice time to have a spouse or someone living with you -- even a pet would be great.

I am mostly up, but I think I'm getting a little tired of myself, LOL.  I do go out to the grocery store which is a big and fast event, but it is also scary.  There are people who just don't seem to comprehend how far six feet is and get right up next to you.  It is so irritating!!!!!  I'm usually a shopper who takes 2 hours in the grocery store, browsing and getting what inspires me.  This used to drive John mad, he was in/out 8 minutes.  Now it is with list in hand and sanitizer close by and in and out quickly.

The grocery store used to be fun.  Now I bring the groceries in, wipe down each bag and unload and wipe down all food.  Then I have to sanitize the door handles, go to the car and clean doors, handles, steering wheel, gear shift knob and I just writing this now realized that I have not cleaned my seat belt buckle, yikes.  It just takes one creepy bug..........................  Then the trunk handle.  I haven't cleaned the inside of the truck, but I'm hoping that time will take care of that.

I've been taking my daily walk which I do enjoy.  Get a few hellos, but it seems that some people are even afraid to say hi at a distance of 20 feet.  That is funny, but also sad.  I figure we do need contact, even oral to keep some sanity.  I did stop and visit with one man for about 10 minutes yesterday and we had a nice conversation about the beauty of being retired, especially at this time in our history.

It is hard to believe that this tiny, teeny little bug has shut down the world for the most part.  The economic reality is pretty unbelievable.  It is heartbreaking to think about the aftermath of this situation.  It is going to be a long recovery period.



I suppose a positive is having friends contact you to see if you are OK and visa versa.  I'm not a telephone person, but I've had more phone conversations in the last two weeks than at anytime in my life.  Thank goodness for messenger, Skype, the internet and TV.  I've never watched so much TV in my life.  Another plus is that we have time to do things we were always too busy to get done.  I myself have at least 30 projects I can get done.  The hard part there is in keeping myself motivated.  I suppose there are people out there so up to date they don't have any projects?  Another thing that is strange is having a blank and I mean blank calendar.  I'm so used to being on the go, go.  So maybe this is a good time to reflect a bit on how fast I was going.  Maybe a day when you have three things scheduled is too much.  I know my January and February activities were out of control so I hope I've learned to slow down a little.  I hope so. 

I've been eating way to much of the wrong things for comfort.  Not enough exercise and sleeping long and taking naps.  A good escape mechanism.  I have been trying to post positive messages and share happiness, but sometimes it is in short supply.  My worst problem is sometimes spending 3/4 of the day online.  I've always been a huge internet person, but now I have gone totally overboard.

Rules are needed:  2 hours on house work and organization, 2 hours on art projects, 1 hour in healthy food preparation, a 1 hour walk a day taking photographs because that makes me happy, 1 hour studying Spanish, and a strict limit of internet time.  Unfortunately there is no one here to enforce these rules!!!!!!

So dears, I hope you are all dealing with these issues with fortitude. I just looked up fortitude so I was sure it was the appropriate word and I'd say it is perfect:  Fortitude refers to strength in the face of adversity or difficulty. ... People who have fortitude are described in an admiring way for their courage and this word comes from the Latin word fortitudo, meaning "strength."

I hope you are finding you way.  Bless us all.........................